Sure he was always a bit quiet
No harm in that
No harm in him
Oh don’t know
Shocking temper
Mild to nuclear
Took no prisoners
Blood flowed
Ah no more than before
A bit more
Sure the size of him he has plenty to spare
His memories flowed
Away and back
To and fro
Meandering here and there
Just beyond reach
Then cascading in
I’m in in in they screamed
The voices screamed
No he roared and he cried
And bleed from his eyes
The head case
Ah no harm in him
He liked to touch the petals
The petals
Caress the petals to feel the quiet
To sense the calm of nature
To hear the colours he closed his eyes
And dreamt of the leaves falling
Drilled a hole in his head
Nah his lower back
And his head
Nah that’s just mental
A rumour
A procedure
So many thoughts to decipher
Intelligence breeds the madness
A strange world for one who thinks
Too much
Way too much
Can’t change a leopards spots
Or a mule’s nature
An inclination to be thick
Thick as fuck
He figures stuff out you know
Solves problems
Sees the wood
For the trees
Awful dense jungles
In the labyrinths of the thoughts
As they flow from paranoia to dreams
From theories to substance
From imaginations to poems
Drained the black from the white
Pressure he was under pressure
His brain or his mind
His soul or his self
Who knows who cares
Who wonders
He wonders
Why kindness is scorned
Why love is lost
Why lust is carved from stone
When love should be found
And lust melted from the wind
Of a butterfly’s wings
Is he mad
Or bad
Does he dream nightmares
Is he a nightmare
Is his violence in his soul
Is his kindness in his mind
Lost or found
Leave him run free in the field
Wild screaming to the banshee’s air
Calling out to the world
Sure who’d be caring or listening
Not even himself
A funny fucker at times
Strange
Nah just funny
He’d make you laugh
Or smile
Just wants the quiet
Sure who doesn’t
Loads don’t
Loads do
Hasn’t much to say for himself
Would talk the hind legs of a mule
Different strokes for different
Moments in time
Sometimes the words are lost inside
With nothing to say
Or nothing to feel
Just calm
Calm waters are the easiest to disturb
Throw in a pebble and a tsunami
Rips the heart out of the island
Still they drained the black
The pressure gently easing
Close his eyes
Close his eyes
And let his mind see the dreams
He seeks inside
Clean the blood and clean the skin
Refresh the mind
Let the river flow
Let the thoughts
Crash and flow
Gentle and wild
Let me be the man
Who touches the petals
Who talks to himself
Who sleeps in the quiet
Who roars in the night
Whose brain works and works
And travels here and there
North to east south to west
To see all the beauty
He can imagine and feel
And write something
Of beauty that meanders over your
Mind and touches your heart
And makes you shiver
And smile and love
Frankie writing after realising mental health is just a fine thread so easily tripped over. Where in lies the blame? Certainly not with anyone else but Frankie himself and not even fully with him for chemicals mix and match and swap and combine and he takes responsibility for everything himself and for his mind and thoughts and anger and the line we walk is one we can balance upon but the tight rope walker has a safety net because no matter how good he is he knows sometimes he will need the net to catch him. Thank god for the doctors and the nurses and the therapists who are our nets . And thanks for the pen and paper or keyboard which is the estuary to the opium of my soul which is my need to write